I have to admit: post grad I mainly hid under a rock. I didn’t go out and see movies as often as I wanted and my general interest in movies faded from my usual enthusiasm that existed in undergrad. But two movies stood out to me artistically these past two years; Melancholia and I Am Love.
Warning spoilers.
Melancholia
I saw Melancholia on my birthday at Violet Crown Cinema (a really great theatre in Austin, be sure to sit in front). And after a year of really battling my own private storm, I felt a release after watching this movie. This movie is incredibly beautiful while exploring paralyzing depression. Maybe my muse just loves total destruction when it comes to endings I actually like. My favorite ballet is La Bayadere because everyone dies at the end. The ending for Melancholia was also incredibly satisfying to me. And I’m so thankful I saw this movie in the theatre. Both the visuals and the audio were designed to be seen in a big space.
I Am Love
When I was accepted into my first dance company, I rewarded myself by seeing this movie. This film is not only beautiful with an amazing score from John Adams, it’s incredibly hopeful. The main character Emma steps away from the life she has grown to expect into a life of possibility and personal truth. Probably one of the scariest acts we can take in our life is to completely start over. I loved it when I was young, but now that I’m older, starting over means a whole lot more than it used to. There is more risk the older you get and leaving your childhood is not just an act of rebellion; it’s a redefinition in how you are going to live your life. The ending of I Am Love just hits you in the gut with John Adams’ score. It’s a feeling I hope I can at least glimpse at choreographically.

I’m glad I saw both of these movies at big moments of my life. In fact they helped make the moment bigger by seeing them and letting them sink into my musing. I love that in both these movies, beauty is used as a medium to extend the story. It’s something I want to pay more attention to in my own work.








